Lisa Marie Presley blogs about marriage to Michael Jackson
Michael Jackson’s ex wife Lisa Marie Presley wrote a blog about Jackson on her MySpace page.
She talks about how Michael felt like he was going to end up like her dad Elvis Presley. She also mentioned how she and the Jackson family tried to save Michael.
Her blog is posted below……
Years ago Michael and I were having a deep conversation about life in general.
“I can’t recall the exact subject matter but he may have been questioning me about the circumstances of my Fathers Death.
At some point he paused, he stared at me very intensely and he stated with an almost calm certainty, “I am afraid that I am going to end up like him, the way he did.”
I promptly tried to deter him from the idea, at which point he just shrugged his shoulders and nodded almost matter of fact as if to let me know, he knew what he knew and that was kind of that.
14 years later I am sitting here watching on the news an ambulance leaves the driveway of his home, the big gates, the crowds outside the gates, the coverage, the crowds outside the hospital, the Cause of death and what may have led up to it and the memory of this conversation hit me, as did the unstoppable tears.
A predicted ending by him, by loved ones and by me, but what I didn’t predict was how much it was going to hurt when it finally happened.
The person I failed to help is being transferred right now to the LA County Coroners office for his Autopsy.
All of my indifference and detachment that I worked so hard to achieve over the years has just gone into the bowels of hell and right now I am gutted.
I am going to say now what I have never said before because I want the truth out there for once.
Our relationship was not “a sham” as is being reported in the press. It was an unusual relationship yes, where two unusual people who did not live or know a “Normal life” found a connection, perhaps with some suspect timing on his part. Nonetheless, I do believe he loved me as much as he could love anyone and I loved him very much.
I wanted to “save him” I wanted to save him from the inevitable which is what has just happened.
His family and his loved ones also wanted to save him from this as well but didn’t know how and this was 14 years ago. We all worried that this would be the outcome then.
At that time, In trying to save him, I almost lost myself.
He was an incredibly dynamic force and power that was not to be underestimated.
When he used it for something good, It was the best and when he used it for something bad, It was really, REALLY bad.
Mediocrity was not a concept that would even for a second enter Michael Jackson’s being or actions.
I became very ill and emotionally/ spiritually exhausted in my quest to save him from certain self-destructive behavior and from the awful vampires and leeches he would always manage to magnetize around him.
I was in over my head while trying.
I had my children to care for, I had to make a decision.
The hardest decision I have ever had to make, which was to walk away and let his fate have him, even though I desperately loved him and tried to stop or reverse it somehow.
After the Divorce, I spent a few years obsessing about him and what I could have done different, in regret.
Then I spent some angry years at the whole situation.
At some point, I truly became Indifferent, until now.
As I sit here overwhelmed with sadness, reflection and confusion at what was my biggest failure to date, watching on the news almost play by play The exact Scenario I saw happen on August 16th, 1977 happening again right now with Michael (A sight I never wanted to see again) just as he predicted, I am truly, truly gutted.
Any ill experience or words I have felt towards him in the past has just died inside of me along with him.
He was an amazing person and I am lucky to have gotten as close to him as I did and to have had the many experiences and years that we had together.
I desperately hope that he can be relieved from his pain, pressure and turmoil now.
He deserves to be free from all of that and I hope he is in a better place or will be.
I also hope that anyone else who feels they have failed to help him can be set free because he hopefully finally is.
The World is in shock but somehow he knew exactly how his fate would be played out some day more than anyone else knew, and he was right.”
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While i was reading ur blog, i could feel ur pain Lisa. And it’s so from the heart… We will all miss him. Thank you for sharing this blog with us. xoxo Kimberley
Really heart felt, and I believe she means what she said. It’s tripped out because I always wondered to myself “How is the world going to act when MJ dies?” It sounds stupid, but for years I’ve always wondered that. I just didn’t imagine it being when he’s 50.
Lisa Marie, thank you for sharing your feelings with us. Wish you all the best and take good care of yourself! xoxoxo Hedy
Who’d have thought I’d have to opportunity to communicate with you and share you pain, in whatever small capacity. Your relationship was a true coming together of souls. You shared what no doubt many at the time desired. You remain his wife …first, and the unforgettable. Reading your blog really brings home the reality of what has just happened … how ironic … history repeating himself.
Once you’ve gotten over the pain, I pray you will see the blessing in what the future holds. Here was a man who gave his life to the world, sacrificing his childhood and the luxuries of normality in turn giving of himself wholeheartedly to those who adored him … his fans.
There is none I can think of presently that could leave such a legacy. Having experienced it all before I believe now you will come to understand the significance within your union.
In closing I feel at last the world will now share with you, as you have shared and love you as you so rightly deserve.
Chin up … more power to your elbow … breathe deep. Take time to grieve then celebrate his life and help others to do so, in turn ridding the ghosts of the past and embracing the future.
Create and live a life YOU love. Love the life YOU live.
WHAT THE MIND OF MAN CAN CONCEIVE AND BELIEVE, IT CAN ACHIEVE.
God bless you and your family in your time of need. Please accept my condolences.
Lorraine x
Michael Jackson u will never be forgotton u are the hip hop king and wheni heard that u had died on the radio i started crying we’re all going 2 mizz u. I knw that u went through alot and u are n a better place now and still 2 day wen i think of u i get really sad. who knws they’re probably going to have u as a holiday now. im really going 2 miss u !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! R.I.P MJ
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Lisa Marie,
Thank you for your heartfelt, sincere comments regarding the beloved Michael Jackson. I admire your warmth and honesty. You did the best you could do at that time and that should be celebrated. There is no doubt that the world and you loved him dearly and may you find peace in the wonderful times you spent with Michael. May God bless you and your family.
I can feel the sadness and share your pain, coz sincerely after getting the news,I felt like some part of me has also died with him and its like Michael was just like someone I had known my entire life.Being his fan,I dont know if I’ll ever learn to live with this pain.Lisa, wherever he is,I know God is with him.May his blessed soul rest in Eternal peace.
WoooooWWWWW!! so many powerful words i feel so sad now knowing all this and i understand Lisa Marie, so many women are like that, we try and rescue poor souls in need we meet along the way and theres a motherly instinc inescapable to most of us involved in this behavior.
We feel so bad when the help we tried to provide goes un heard and we feel we failed and then we lose all hope and theres an element of rejection towards theperson who ignored our good will as if you felt a terrible taste of ungratefulness since it takes so much energy to save someone from him or herself and it kills you when you see something like this happen, i felt bad about Lisa Marie when she bashed MJ in a couple of statements, but i can understand now how she had a bad time being married to this guy who was more of a enterprize and a force of nature and not easy to deal with we know she tried to find the person she felt in love with .
Bye
well i still don’t know and we will probably never know if this is true about michael. I mean because it exactly the same as Elvis’… it just doesn’t add-up… maybe im crazy, maybe im going somewhere with this.. I have to admit that was a great blog, but we will never know if Mr.Michael Jackson is dead or not. In my theory, I think he is alive not because I am his biggest fan… but because of his family..concert,this is it? Why would you name your concert this is it?…..and don’t forget about the children. Maybe Im just crazy. but only God knows, and Lisa if he is dead or not atleast he is free from his suffering.
God loves you and bless you!
Lisa,
I am sorry but this story is getting old. You talk as if Michael did this to himself and we all know this is not true. How can anyone believe anything you say? Please don’t compare Michael with your father, Elvis. They were two different people and thier lives were not the same.
Get over yourself! It really hurts me that you can talk this way about Michael!
Lisa, Thank you for allowing yourself to become so open and raw. I’ve watched you on Oprah & have heard of your blog, but for some unknown reason tonight was the night I was brought to it to read. I believe you’ve done a great service to Michael and honoring his love for you, as well as for yourself. We, as a world, cause our greats such pain by getting into your personal lives. I don’t believe there was any love stronger, other than for his children & Mother, than the love he had for you. I wish I had the opportunity to have met Michael, as well as you. I don’t think there’s been a day that’s gone by since his passing, that I’ve not listened to a song or watched a video. I am 4 years older than Michael, I kind of grew up with him. Again, thank you, I appreciate your sharing. Love to you & your family.
So sad xxxx RIP Michael xxx
Takes courage to put this ‘out there’ for all to see xxx