Do we all have something to prove? Whether it’s financially, professionally or personally I think we all work at proving our worth to others. The older I get, the more I realize it’s tough constantly worrying about it! Why do I feel I have to prove myself? The more pressure I put on myself to look perfect, speak perfect, be financially and professionally perfect is when I crumble. I believe the happiest times in my life have been the times I’ve been okay with myself. I’m not saying we stop caring about how our lives affects others, actually just the opposite is true. Accepting ourselves can be one of our greatest accomplishments. It’s then we know how to care for others as well.
As I sat in my car in the turning lane I noticed right in front of me another driver waiting in the opposite turning lane, directly across from me. How odd we both felt, at least I did and he seemed to look a bit uncomfortable too. At first we were both looking straight ahead, but realized we were staring at each other, so we both turned away (I know he did, I peeked out of the corner of my eye!). I had it easier because I was in a car and could fiddle with the radio and stuff. He was on a motorcycle, poor guy, there wasn’t much to distract him on that thing. The downside of this weird predicament is that you have to look forward to see if the light turns green.
It’s funny how that type of situation can make people feel uneasy. What changes? I’ve seen plenty of babies and children watch others and it’s perfectly okay. But the older you get the more that becomes socially unacceptable. Hmm… makes me wonder how that became a rule? When is the age a person can’t stare at others anymore? Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying I want to stalk people. When I’m out running errands I don’t want anyone to eyeball me either, but do I have that feeling because that’s what I was taught or how I really feel? I guess I can’t compare a baby’s rules to an adult’s… because babies do all kinds of things adults aren’t allowed too anymore. Sure they can stare at others, they can also skip using the bathroom facilities like an adult!